So, I'm typing in xanga again because of some feelings I have right now that need to be let out.

This feeling that I have at this moment seems to be very depressing. I don't know why, but that is what I am feeling right now. I sense a lot of people sad, frustrated, or confused and that make me feel the same. I have no reasons to have this feeling, but the sort of connection I am receiving from some people. I do not want to be in people's personal business, but it really bothers me that I can't save the day, then again I understand that things has to be thought out first before having false feelings and telling people their true feelings, and find people they can trust.

Another thing is that I don't want to play games anymore with liking/loving someone, whatever. Honestly, I love to flirt with girls a lot but, what I'm trying to bring up is that I want to enjoy the single life. I enjoy what I am doing for myself right now. I have seen that the person I am. I am not ready to be in a relationship, I do not want to bring a girl in my life and then break her heart because of the lack of love that I will not give to her. So what if the girl likes me? What can i do? I have not found that out yet. I have never felt love in my life...REAL LOVE. Don't give me something that I will not receive and give in return. My heart has a hole, so far no one has filled that hole yet.

Next, is that life is really going by fast and I have no way to control it or slow it down. I have really gain some new friends, but then again there is always a bad side to it...I even loose friends. Not spiritually, but their presents. Even though I will be leaving too I really have a preview of what is going to happen. I will miss you and love you always for anybody who is leaving to move on with their future. I will never forget you guys. You have been an importance in my life.

I think that is everything that has really bothered me. So now I must sleep and be done with this last and final exam for the FALL 2008 and enjoy the holidays.

AHHHH..E!

If you notice my last entry I talked about nothing and really...I did not type anything over the summer. So I am going to do that right now.

Just a quick summary of how my summer went or in words.

Tito BoyScouts WOOOOOO!!!!
Family Events
Families from California
Atlantic City
Camp Mabuhay
Mabuhay
Parties
North Carolina (Drinking my ass off)
Hanging Out w/ friends

Yup that is basically what I did over the summer. It was awesome, especially during July. That was the best month out of this whole summer. I wish can go back in time and do it all over again. This past summer I will never forget all the new people I have met and to all the people I hanged out with during the summer that I don't even get to hang out during the school year, but I will miss them a whole lot. Damn..I wish I can go see them again. Summer was very interesting to me because I had feelings that wasn't there for two year and that is liking someone. A crush on someone I've just met. Weiiiiird. Their is nothing wrong with liking someone, but I wont go through that bull crap from 2 years ago every again. I've learned my lesson. (If you have no idea what I am talking about just ignore that sentence).  I'm just glad to have met that person. Wish I can see her again. Good thing I let all those feelings out back in North Carolina when I was drunk calling my friend. lol. Thanks for listening man.  

Anyways...school is back and I guess I'm ready for this semester. Class today was boring btw. We just talked only about the syllabus. I fell asleep in my last class because I have the same teacher twice w/ the same freaken syllabus. Uggg...o well it will get better soon, I hope.

My life is changing and hopefully I'm prepared for it. All I know this though is that GOD, my families, my TBS, and my friends will always be there when I need them.




You've made this summer the BEST.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
Thanks for the Memories!

Peace, Love, and GOD BLESS!

Halloween Night was the greatest. The weather was nice and everything.
Now I am tired and I really need to pass outsjakdnnjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj.